A realization....

I have always been a relatively clean person. I definately have better weeks than others. But my vice - the bane of my existence, is the dreaded laundry room. It always has been, and there was a time, that I felt that it always would be. I once read a website http://www.flylady.com/ It is a moderately famous site. I had followed it several years ago and tried to clean my house using it's techniques. Well - blah, blah, blah I couldn't live up to it and gave up. Laundry has always been an issue and it is literally the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about when I go to sleep. The proverbial monkey on my back. I finally had had it and with all of the stress that I have been under I had to get out from under one thing and laundry is what I lined my sites on. So I brought up the flylady website again and went in and spent 8 hours doing laundry and cleaning. And after - Ahhh sweet, unadulterated relief. The feeling was one that I have never felt before. I slept great that night. After a week I kept up my laundry and would go to bed and out of habit would get that sinking feeling in my gut about dirty laundry. The feeling would soon dissipate. Then something amazing happened. Because I had more time to ponder about other issues in my life I was able to work through them. I realized the dirty laundry was a mask to defer my thoughts on things that didn't matter rather than on the things that really needed to matter. Needless to say, I am a new woman.